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march 16 2025

another update!

Howdy there y'all!!
so i spent a good few hours revamping my site today and uploading some free-writes i was doing last week. been pretty busy with other projects but i was really enjoying the freewrites and will liekly continue to do them eventually haha

as of right now i'm pretty happy with how the site is looking! one thing i'm planning to add is the ability to sort by date for these blog posts. i also want to make my gallery page interactive and have each image tagged and sorted by type, but that's going to be a massive undertakign and im not QUITE sure i know enoug HTML and javascript to pull that off at the moment so, for now, it's just a gallery page. hey, it's something!!
OH!!! I also want to add a guestbook!!! maybe i'll do that after i'm done writing this.
anyways, i'm going to try and prioritize my personal art a lot more, as well as focus a bit more on actual networking. i also want this blog to be a lot more like the first post where i'm actually writing my thoughts about a certain thing rather than just rambling on or posting weird, esoteric passages of semi-poetic nonsense, but... we'll see

well, that's about it for now. see y'all on the flip side.

-erk rev
(03.16.25//3:29 pm)

march 05 2025

eating toast again

i go get it a santana
agog! it atat! insane!
attain a going seat
got a gnat i.e. a stain

untitled

a byte-sized e-smie web site
my wide eyes might seize insight
no right wives envy mens height
all right, i'll say good night

university dropout

u too dirty, revin. 'sup?
tip: invert your duos
ur soup oven? i'd try it.

untitled>

ghostly apparitions
most appear in visions

let me hold your hand
it lets me understand

march 04 2025

free write

we might
delight

she-knight

flea bite
wee mite

be bright

he a'aight

ski site

preflight

tree height

re: spite

cree plight

me night:
tea light
brie, white
smie, right?

sea sprite

e-site

a collection of things

top ten things said before catastrophic bathroom visits

evening pizza
sure thing plz yeah!


2 things about my brother

good advice
good at ice


osha

heavy load
iron toed


an ad in an asylum

have restraints?
halve complaints


parenting

to each their own
to teach thy clone


normal guy vs a pirate really ashamed of calling for help

excuse me please
excuse me pleas


march 03 2025

microwave timed rhymes

microwave time rhymes
penny for your dime times

whats a rhyme time pray tell? well, its when i go to town on a verbal crime time
but at the same time is it really such a bad job to have the rhymes remain the same on every other thought, though?
but then i think about it. see, if it were me—and so to speak it was a tie between the sides of whether its a crime (and if that crime is worth me doing time) or if the rhymes shant stay the same—i would have said
"see here, hear me clearly:
is it really such a crime though? if all the lines turn out the same, every single time, though?"

beep.

untitled

too many days are spent inside of themselves
=
tomb any dazed arse pent in sight of them's elves

sleepytime erkle

merely likes pete
elk meeter? lie. spy.
kill me. ye pee. rest
yelp! see milk tree?
yell pest i.e. me, erk
seek lime, try peel
sleekly remet PEI

feb 19 2025

new updates in the erkle world

hello everyone! it's been a little while since i've written an update here. not that anyone actually reads this to notice or care, but for me, it's notable... i guess.

so. lots going on! i had a great valentine's day with jacob. i woke up in the morning to make pizza dough from scratch, which was fun. jacob came home from work and made a really nice marinara sauce and the pizza came out soooo good you have no IDEA. we shared a bottle of wine and smoked some joints and just... had a great night together. it was just so full of fun and love.

i've been playing a LOT of animal crossing: new horizons lately. my 3 friends and i all restarted our saves within a week of each other so we've been replaying the game and using it as an excuse to hang out and talk. it's actually really fun and has really recaptured the joy of playing it for the first time in 2020 for me. i'm still working towards getting kk slider to play on my island but two out of the four of us have already gotten it so i must no be too far behind.

some good news though: i've been hunting for jobs lately (finally). i applied to a few but i actually only heard back from the people who run the weed store next to us and today i had an interview there! i really liked the manager and we chatted for a while and she said that she really wanted to hire me even though she was having trouble with the business at the moment and couldn't offer me much more than a couple days a week, which is fine. i'm glad to have something, anyways.

i've had a little trouble with my friend the last few weeks, too. i really love him but he has a lot of self worth issues and struggles with friendships and such. anyways, i wont get into the details here but he needs to distance himself from me for awhile which is... simultaneously completely understandable and utterly heartbreaking. i don't really blame myself, it was just an awkward situation that ended up happening, but still. i really do hope him and i can return to some approximation of normal soon.

one thing i've been thinking a lot about how many art projects i wish i were doing. there are so many hobbies i love but i find myself paralyzed by them all and choosing to do a lot of nothing instead. that is, until i'm about to go to sleep and they all crawl up and into my brain and make themselves known. and then i say "i'll do this and this and this tomorrow!" and rarely do i actually do them... i know this is a common occurrence for those of us that are what society has named "those creative types" but it still makes it difficult. i've been on these new meds that seem to help, though, and i've been pretty damn consistent with my sleep schedule which is, as far as i've gathered, one of the most important parts! so i can't really be too upset at myself.

so, i guess i really need to start listing out all of the tasks i want to start doing. i keep saying that i will and then i never really commit. i have so many long-forgotten lists in my journal that i never actually got to. its hard to keep up with stuff like that for me. i wonder if there's just a certain Thing i've yet to discover that will be the system that works for me? i don't know. maybe its naïve of me to believe that there's a perfect system that will make it so i can actually get things done, but also, people figure it out all the time, so why shouldn't i?

anyways. i've written a lot here so this will be the end of this post. if i have anything else to say i'll make another one. as always, if you're reading this: thank you. i love you. i don't know why you're here but i love that you are.

have a good one!

-erk

(02.19.25//4:11pm)

feb 11 2025

erkle yaps about yapping

i sit down to write after having all of these ideas pop into my head during the day. i think to myself "oh there was something i thought of saying today but didn't get a chance to... i should write a post about that!" and then when i look into the html file i try to start listing out the ideas i'd had, but only one extremely vague one even comes to mind...

most definitely need to keep my voice recorder around now so i can actually list down ideas...

often when i'm by myself, i'm creating theoretical essays in my head that i would love to write down or even just communicate. typically, when i try to speak them aloud they tend to fall apart as i chase rabbits... or too many blades of grass, so to speak. also my head hurts. third smoke of the day after smoking two nights in a row was not the play, i fear. the first time was great and even the second but ugh. migraine city.

so many things i need to do and so few times i actually do em. at least im being somewhat productive though, right? its what i try and tell myself. i might try and draw for awhile after this, to be honest. i think i've had enough of screens for the time being. i planned to write for 30 minutes but i'm truly losing my patience for screens.

so long and have a good night erkle nation.

we stay silly

-erkle the circle

(02.11.25//8:23pm)

feb 9 2025

blog post fo today

hello everyone, erkle here! today i worked a lot on this website! i basically figured out how to make the archive header for this blog page which will, one day, include a way to sort through all these blog posts by date... until then, its sort of just.... a long line of blog posts haha. i also made a little "back to top" button and made it so clicking the buttons on the archive bar and the button take you to the oldest post and the top of the page, respectively. also, i did a LOT of fiddling in the CSS and learned a lot of just... how everything actually works! im feeling a lot more confident in my ability to make things !!! YAY !!!!.

anywho... i've been looking at this computer screen for (checks watch) NEARLY FIVE HOURS NOW???? god damn !!!!! so i'm about ready to turn this thang off for the day. so a short blog post today. shoutout to nat and cal for keeping me company while i coded today !! and, as always, to jacob for being the bestest boy in the planet (well what are you waiting for??? GET HIM OUT OF THERE???)

here are some ideas for things i want to add eventually, in no particular order

ANYWAYS thats about it for now im getting reaaaaaally eepy so... GOOD NIGHT !!

-erk

(02.09.25//5:07pm)

feb 8 2025

thoughts on the album hawaii: part ii

  • context: 2000mg mushgums + weed
  • dial in level: 6/7 (yoga)
  • album rating: damn shits crazy/what the Fuck (6/7)
note: i have listened to this album in full before but i dont think i ever really like... fully Gotten it (and i'm still not sure that i do or ever will fully understand it-- nor would i necessarily want to...) my interpretation and thoughts are as follows:

SO the basic version of what i heard was, essentially, a guy who has some kind of mental condition-- this theme is extremely apparent throughout the whole album. and there's definitely an aspect of finding someone you love-- in this case it seems like a girl that he really fell in love with. and it sort of feels like a man who always struggled with issues overcame them in life (maybe?) and now, as he's old and thinking back to his life leading up to his death, things keep getting more and more scrambled. sort of a similar experience to that one episode of bojack horseman (you know the one i mean). and so in the track where they're singing in japanese, it read to me as a somewhat stylistic choice to show something "familiar", a love song, but in a language that is "unintelligable" (← guy who doesnt speak japanese voice) but also for like 99% of an english speaking audience. and then it transitions to french which is, again for us English Andys, much more decypherable. its like... giving a glimpse of somehting juuuuust barely out of reach... but also, as far as the other ways this effect is conjured through the album, one that is the most... "normal" (empahses on quote/unquote) from a structural standpoint. it really like... they understood the assignment with that one tbh

The next song i actually know pretty well and have listened to the most out of any song on the album (and have listened to it a lot). in context though i really tried my best to listen to it with the mindset of understanding its Place in the story and TBH being high really helped in this case i think. this is where, in the narritave, im assuming he committed some kind of crime-- OH LIGHTBULB MOMENT no wonder that other song is called murders... and sounds so scary... its because he did murders or something..... probably..... ANYWAYS, it has a lot of 'mental breakdown' energy. the thing that i love about it tho is you have to go through the build up of the backwards version of the song, and as you get closer to it turning around you get the samples that are "the right way around" sort of showing that he's getting closer and closer to a "clear" picture or, the way i interpret it, is sort of that he's trying to find Clarity in his memories. then, you get the bell toll. and then you go through the like... weird, scary middle with the voice telling him to raise his right hand (court?) and sending him to The Infirmary (mental institution?) and, later, he says like "i was just a boy you see, something something sympathy" and then it transitions into like... like you were told at the beginning just before the bell toll that you were on the way to death so whatever happens you'll... make it through, i guess? but then you listen through the whole thing and get the payoff at the end of all the tension getting cut, and this idea of 'well now that we're at the end lets see what kind of weird shit the brain is gonna do' as they say i thiiink in a later song (specifics are somewhat failing). also, i find it interesting to interpret it this way and think that... it's almost like a warning at the beginning of the song. sort of a "be aware that once you Cross this Threshold into these memories its going to be Rough" (Also at some point i really should read the lyrics so there's less Guessing but, again, this is meant to be an off-the-cuff first thoughts documentation so dont expect perfection) and then the FIRST thing he remembers is the horrible shit he's done and went through... and then it seems that the memories Overtake him to a certain extent.

AND THEN THE rap song of All Time. hes trapped. shits crazy. and then theres a nice slow one and i think the overall vibe of the ending is he takes comfort in the memories of this woman that he met that loved him and helped him to have, what i would hope, a pretty good life after all the shit he went through. maybe she was just a nice nurse at the infirmary we may never know (note: it might be knwown)

then he dies or whatever. or well the rest is the slow build up to the death and an artistic an expression of what it Might be Like. AND THEN THE!!! french part comes back but the way the vibes of the song hit, its like. 'who cares ! theres a bit that i dont fully understand but its still like. Nice. enjoyable.' i'd need to fully decypher lyrics for awhile to be more in depth with my citations LMAO. but yeah and then there's a part where the whale (??? i think???)says soemthing along the lines of 'follow me lets see what this Puppy can do!' and i'm of three minds about it: is it just like... the Voice of the Illness seeing what Hell he put the guy through before he dies? or could it be more of a voice of Death type of situation? or the weird one that i, for some reason, initially thought of it as: the doctors or whatever at the asylum pumping him full of crazy drugs Just as he's about to die (or even him taking them himself?) just to, i guess, See what his Special mind will Do considering its the end anwyays...????????

and then of course it just Ends right when the buildup is reaching its peak... because like. it's the event horizon, you know? no one knows what's Beyond it and its Unknowable by nature... something something "death = a black hole or whatever. "- chris nolan when asked what Interstellar is about

anyways i typed this while listening to the album a second time as a timer and it is done now. thanks for reading :]

im goin to bed y'all, gn!!

-erkle !!!!!!!

(02.08.25//11:34pm)

(EDIT: edited for spelling, grammar, and overall cohesive-ness (still not perfect but i dont care!) 02.09.25//2:01pm)

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